Big Choice

Everytime is a learning process. It will always there new things everytime. The latest lesson I got is, "what you tell, define your self", so be wise before you decide to tell something. Easy to tell, hard to practice. But trust me, no pain no gain. Pfft. I am just a tiny creature that learn from people before me. Forgive me if there are too much another people's wise word inside this. But yeah, old man does not know anything, but they have several experrience of being wrong. Stole their experrience by not doing the same way.

Pak Yudhi made me realize that what I wrote define me by telling that he read my blog and tell several conclusion of stuff I wrote. I used to write better thing. That's what I got. Thank you so much Pak Yudhi, for the knowledge that you share, for this ordinary student university that trying to get involved by joining your project. You are such a great lecturer for me. This is for sure, and nothing spessified meaning behind this. I am obviousely glad to be in your team.

I prepared my departure to Dharmasraya in this last two days. Packing the stuff that I dont need to bring and stuff that will be left when I was in Dharmasraya. Its not a big thing for me to move, because I have several human resource that will always be able to help me. But there was a big thing ruin ini my soul. Something that hard to define by words. Confusious and dylematic feeling ruining inside. Many question bother me by decreasing my confidence. Question such as, can I manage people ? can I socialize with villagers ? Can I reach the target ? Can I enjoy this job ? Can I involve this team by giving my best abilities ? these question repeated in my brain and making my brain get warmer than usual.